This blog post was a rather emotional awakening for me. I have realized a lot since this encounter and I’d love it if you could all remain sensitive to the fact that this is a big deal for me. Although it may not be for you. This blog post wasn’t planned at all, I was speaking to a friend and it sparked a massive realization. Do you know those eureka moments in which everything makes sense? This was mine.
This is how that conversation went. ( I changed it slightly for dramatic effect.)
Me – My blog is rubbish, I’m rubbish and I should give up.
My friend – That’s your mental health speaking.
And just like that, I realized. She was right. Now, this may seem very abundantly clear to everybody else around me, but I was completely blind to it. I had become so used to that nagging voice that I hadn’t even pinpointed that it was my mental health speaking. I felt dumbfounded by this, I had never really realized how my mental health affected my blogging.
The truth is my mental health does affect my blogging experience along with many other aspects of my life. It affects my ability to believe in myself, I constantly doubt my worth and I will always be my worst critic. I feel like I am not good enough and that I should just stop. Everybody is better than I am and nobody likes my work.
None of this is true. I know that now.
But that doesn’t and will not stop those thoughts from happening. It’s hard for me to admit that. My blog means a lot more to me than you could possibly imagine. It’s become a massive part of my life. I don’t have a huge social network and my blog provides me with the ability to talk to new people and to make new friends. I love blogging, it makes me feel accomplished and I am very proud of myself for what I have achieved. But there is always that voice at the back of my head telling me I am not good enough, and that I should quit.
I know that if I ever quit, I would feel miserable. If I let those thoughts win, I would be worse mentally.
This is the moment, today, right now when I bark back and tell that voice that they are wrong. I am a great blogger, I am a writer and I am determined to follow my dream even if that means battling my mental health along the way. I can do this and I will. I will continue to fight off those thoughts. I will continue to write even on the bad days. If I need a break, I will take one. But I will not ever quit.
Don’t let your mental health stop you from being yourself, don’t let it stand in the way of your dreams. Everything and anything is possible!
If anyone would like to chat about Mental Health I am always available. You can contact me via email at firstname.lastname@example.org or via any of my social media’s. I am not a professional and I cannot offer you professional advice. I can offer a listening ear and help you seek help if need be. All conversations will be 100% confidential and I will not judge you in any way. I would hate for anybody to feel alone, you are not alone. I am here for you.
I have wrote a blog post for everyday of the week for Mental Health Awareness week, each day covering a different topic. Tommorow’s blog post is now available here.
The Topic is: Mindfulness